Last Friday, the first thing I did before I got to work was write.
In the parking lot.
In my car at 8:30am before the rest of my team showed up.
Not just any writing, but writing In my journal from Level 1 and Level 2 teacher training with Baptiste. The journal that I have with me at all times, no matter what bag I am carrying for the day. The journal my store manager gifted me.
Baby light blue. Fits in your hand.
The journal that is raw without a mask in hopes of looking good. No extra icing or cherries on top. This is the one that holds the stories I have created and recreated since I was a little girl.
The stories I have broken down, experienced, shared, and chosen to discover (and sometimes not) breakthrough. Letters I have written again and again to myself and others.
We break down to break through. Easy, right?
I have felt burned out, run thin, 99.9% therefore at 0%. 0% at work. 0% with family. 0% relationships. 0% with my yoga practice and teaching. ultimate 0% for myself and not filled. I have felt passion and light drained out of me.
I woke up last night in tears. Not bad tears, tears that allowed me to really feel and be at clearing. Awakened.
"Do things that light you up with people who light you up for people you love to serve."
This is my commitment. 100% light. I am not 99 or 0% and neither are you. We are here to light it up!
Simply. Do things that make your heart skip a beat with people that make your heart skip a beat. Serve each other on and off the mat by connecting and being in relationship.
Then, wake up tomorrow and do the same thing. And the next day. And the next. Simply connect with passion.
"If you can do that, just maybe the cumulative effect of your daily state will add up to your highest-potential fate. And it won’t just have been about getting there, or building, or becoming, but simply being. Fiercely. With all your heart."
I am fierce. I am bold. I am passion. I am light. I want your passion and light. I want to skip heart beats with you. All of your heart 100%.
1 week later. These words still ring true. and I am still committed to get above that line. 100% light and skipping heart beats. Forever moments will pull my below the line, and I know this is a life long process. I love the process. Messy. Vulnerable. I think this is why I will forever be a student on the mat. I love the process more than the end result. I am on the verge of a break down to experience something new. I am surrounding myself with my boyfriend, friends, Ruby, family, yoga family, and co workers that inspire me. I am in the practice of leading myself. I am in the practice of real conversation with myself so I can be real with others. I am in the practice of being a no, so I can be a bigger yes. I even took a break from my yoga practice this week so I could show up and experience in a new way. Man oh man, I am so ready to unroll tomorrow surrounded by the four walls that have filled me with the gift of being in my full expression and sharing my passion. Sharing these words, creates the possibility to be in action. Words are easy, action is vulnerable. I am vulnerable. Committed. Committed to every breakdown to experience an even bigger breakthrough.
Breakdown, come out, come out wherever you are. I am ready now.
full on gratitude,